From Seeking to Being: My Journey to Inner Fulfillment

It’s incredible to look back and see how much has changed in my life. I used to be someone who was always searching—searching for happiness, for fulfillment, for something that felt just out of reach. My journey wasn’t extraordinary in the beginning; it was actually quite ordinary. But it’s the transformation that followed that I want to share with you. This is the story of how I went from constantly seeking outside myself for happiness to discovering that everything I was looking for was already within me.

I grew up living a pretty normal life—school, university, all the usual stuff—but I always felt like something was missing. I kept thinking, “If I just accomplish this next thing, then I’ll finally feel fulfilled.” I thought finishing school would do it, but it didn’t. I thought traveling would fill the void, but that didn’t work either. Even when I studied law, I was convinced that if I could just get through it and succeed, I’d finally be happy. But again, I wasn’t.

I pushed myself into all kinds of things—extreme sports, intense workouts, anything to try to find that sense of fulfillment. I trained in CrossFit six days a week, exhausting myself physically, hoping that maybe if I could push my body to its limits, I’d find that happiness I was searching for. But no matter what I did, the feeling I was looking for never came.

After university, I thought landing a great job would be the answer. I believed that if I could be successful in my career, then I’d finally feel content. But when that didn’t happen, I felt completely lost. I didn’t know what else to do, so I stopped working for a couple of years to just take a step back and figure out what was missing.

That’s when I started getting into personal development, trying to change my mindset and way of thinking, hoping that would lead to a better life. I tried guided meditations, visualization techniques, and everything I could find. There was one meditation in particular that really stood out to me. I was guided into a very deep state, deeper than I’d ever gone before, and I reached a place of total silence and freedom. It was so beautiful, like I had dissolved completely—there was no “me” anymore, just pure peace. In that moment, I knew that this was what I had been searching for all along.

That realization led me to explore more, and eventually, I found myself in a spiritual group. I started meditating regularly with spiritual transmissions, even though in the beginning, I didn’t feel much of anything. It took about three months before I had my first real experience of energy coming in. That’s when I knew something was happening, and it kept me going.

As I continued on this path, I began to notice profound changes in how I saw the world. My vision started to narrow, almost like I was looking at life through a camera lens. Everything felt more focused, more intense. I realized that I wasn’t just this body or mind—I was the observer, the awareness behind it all. Little by little, things that used to seem so important just started falling away. It was like I was shedding layers of myself that I no longer needed. This stage marked the beginning of what I now recognize as Self-Realization, where I first truly understood that I am not the mind or body but the consciousness observing it all.

The more I meditated, the more I began to feel energies moving through my body, transforming it in ways I couldn’t fully understand. I started having mystical experiences, like feeling connected to something much greater than myself. Eventually, I experienced a profound shift into Unity Consciousness, where I felt myself merging with everything around me. I became one with everything. It was both beautiful and terrifying. This was the point where the boundaries between myself and the world dissolved. 

After that shift, there was no turning back. However, the journey didn’t end there. After integrating the shift and healing and clearing my system, I moved into Brahman Consciousness, where I experienced the vast emptiness that underlies all creation. This was a state where everything felt like it was dissolving into nothingness, and the love and joy I had felt earlier seemed to vanish. It was a profound realization of the impermanence and illusory nature of reality. But even in this emptiness, I knew that something more awaited.

With Para-Brahman Consciousness coming in, I started being able to transmit high vibrational Divine energies and became a channel for Divine forces. This stage was not just about experiencing the divine within but also allowing these forces to flow through me, guiding and transforming everything they touched. It was in this state that my healing abilities fully emerged, and I began working with others, using these energies to help them on their own spiritual journeys.

Now, I an in a state where the Divine forces are fully integrated into my being. This is the base transmission I use for Next Elevations and in my work with others. It’s a powerful, transformative energy that continues to guide and support me and those I work with. The fulfillment I had been searching for wasn’t something to be found in the external world. It was within me all along, waiting to be uncovered. Now, my life is about living from that place of deep peace and love, knowing that I am part of something much greater, something infinite and eternal.